Is my life turning around?

Wow, what a crazy few weeks. I finally got off of that darn roller coaster! I have been on quite a ride here lately. The marriage dept took a downward spiral, I even went apt hunting. We sat down and had a talk AGAIN... Well, I am willing to walk away but we both know we still love one another and don't want to give up. After all too many ppl just give up on marriage. With my illness I had moved out of our bedroom about 1 1/2 yrs ago when I started using a c-pap machine because of the mask I wear. Well, our marriage really went in the hole then. So, I told him and he agreed that a married couple needs that intimacy, of sleeping together. My illness is our illness. The vows did say in sickness and in health, not when she gets sick move her as far away as possible. We have to both deal with it. I need to be more of a partner to him too. I didn't realize how badly he was feeling about some family issues either. Not just our family but his too. I sometime get too wrapped up in my illness and my family and I forget his issues too. I didn't make things any better by getting into it with his sister. I really didn't mean to, she felt attacked by me. Maybe I hadn't realized that I came off so strong. I have really been thinking alot about it and I believe with my mom giving us up to drinking and drugs that maybe I took her sudden lifestyle change more personal than the average Joe would have. I also have issues with her since I know she doesn't like me anyways. So, I guess I'll just keep that on my prayer list. Well, I'm off to bed, I have alot going on in this house and I am slow moving. I did get some of my scrapbook room reorganized. I don't know how I am going to finish all that I have to do. I am hoping that Ray will give me a few bucks from taxes so I can pay someone to come and help me clean. I am in the middle of cleaning my scrapbooking room and Amandas room. I have been on this darn computer too long though, I was looking for some free digi stamps and hit the jackpot! So, I got carried away and once I sat too long there was no getting back up. My back is still hurt and I will be happy to find out some answers Thursday! My MRI results should be in. Wish me luck! P.S. I'm going on a cruise and here are a few pics of the itinerary book I've been working on....