What's next?

Well, today I had to go pick up a container at the lab to get this....collect 3 days worth of.... Yeah....that. I have all the symptoms of pancreatitis so they are testing me for it. It is an actual common occurance with C.F. patients. I am trying to read up on it and understand it and for me, it just makes me more frightened. I am not sure I want to know all of this. I feel so anxious,I'm only getting about 4 hrs sleep a night and then wonder why I want to nap all day. I keep remembering the scripture about God not putting more on me than I can bear. I feel like I can almost understand his walk up Calvary. My knees feel like they just may buckle, I just don't know how much more I can take. I am waiting to wake up and it all be a terrible nightmare. I seriously feel like I have been in shock for the past month. I just don't know how I'm supposed to do respitory therapy 3 times a week along with diabetic classes that is not including my regular appts, which includes 3 different drs. Sorry, I'm journalling but I feel like it helps me vent... it is my therapy. Jackie thanks for your kind words again! You are the best, I appreciate your friendship. Well, I need to try and go get some of that sleep I was talking about earlier. Night