I'm back.

I haven't posted in forever cause I've been sick. Just got out of the hospital last month and just re-cooperating. I just found out that my Dr. wants to put me on the transplant list. I am scared as hell and am not 100% sure this is something I want to do, yet I feel selfish for not wanting to do it. I cannot imagine leaving my daughter or my son. My daughter is only 15 and I just am not ready to leave her. I am still trying to soak it all in. I am happy I went through my divorce and to me that was my transplant. Transplants can give you 2 yrs of great living and that I got by leaving a man that belittled me and treated me like crap. I was just happy I woke up and realized I was worth loving. I am happy that I loved myself enough to leave and in that process I pray that I taught my daughter that nobody deserves to be treated like crap! Well, I am venting and happy to just be able to talk about it. I guess I'm outta here to go to some more research!