Testing 1, 2, 3...

Just came back from a PFT (Pulmonary Function Test) I'm usually pretty good with tests, but not this one! The FEV1 out of 100% I only got 46 but it's better than the last one in Feb. It was only 36%! I just don't get all of these numbers, the lung volume is 33% which is better it was 23% I am sick in a different way this time. My lungs are full but not as bad as normal, more spasms and pain. I don't know, I think they are just getting tired of working. I hope not but there is the realization that I am quite old for this disease most ppl don't make it past 37, that's like the top age and look @ me! I'm gonna be 45! I am like a CF wonder her, I should wear a purple cape...captain cf'er! LOL. I actually brought myself in (as usual) I told hubby I needed to go in and he went for a motorcycle ride. So, I packed and loaded my crap up and on the way I went. It's so nice to know you're gonna die alone. I can't help but to keep hearing my wedding vows over and over and giggle cause he should have just cross out "in sickness" I get that some ppl don't take the medical bs well but I don't want to deal with it either! This is the hand I was dealt, what can you do besides deal with it??? Well, I'm outta here, I just felt like a little rant.. Thank God for my cyberworld here I can run and play! LOL