It's always something..

I just thought I should blog since I rarely do these days, unless it's crafting stuff. I have been very "unwell" I am now dealing with more biopsies, I had cancer in 98-99 and have the same spots returning. I have quite a bad infection in the biopsy site now. I go tomorrow for my results and am hoping that she can give me something to rid me of the infection. I am nervous as heck though. I remember the 3 surgeries it took to rid me of the cancer before (the 2nd and 3rd surgeries were pre-cancerous.) It was one of the most extremely painful experiences of my life; mind you I have had part of my lung removed and have given birth twice!!! On the other hand I have been enjoying my family and crafting alot lately. My son and his fiancee' came and visited while Ray was gone last week and I enjoyed their company so much. I really miss him, I wish we lived closer. It's funny how at 1st you put your guard up, not knowing if a girl is good for your son or to know their intentions, but I am so happy that they have gotten together, they are definately soul mates. They just go together like peanut butter and jelly, beans & franks...well you get my drift. I just feel so truly blessed in my life that I have such a beautiful family, to think that we almost gave up on us, I am so happy that we didn't. I reflect back on things and I believe since I was born into such a screwed up life that God is making up for my childhood. Thank you God :-) I know when he calls me home I can die a rich woman, rich in life's gifts. Enough rambling, I just feel so many emotions tonight.. Fear, worry, loved...all and all I know I'm blessed, let's just see how lucky I am...tomorrow. Maybe I should just go and craft...