I want off of this roller coaster!

I'll tell you I would have never ever guessed my life would have ended up here! I got a call a few days ago from my brother to tell me his g.f. dd. has ca. She's freakin' 14! Then he calls yesterday, he finally got insurance and actually went to a real Dr. for a real check up and they found a large white mass in his left lung in his x-ray! He has been gettting these huge cysts on his neck and chin for about 2 yrs or more. I have been onto him about getting them checked out. (our dad died from hodgkins disease) So, now what? He's going for more tests after a series of antibiotics. The main one is an MRI of his lymphnodes etc, plus he has what they believe is a hernia in his groin. I'm afraid that it's more "masses" cause you have a whole series of lymphnodes there too. What next? I feel so helpless, I can't help myself let alone "be there" for him. I guess I can just be supportive and call him on the phone, be there the best I can. I hate to complain, I really am not trying to but I can't help ? God's plan. Maybe he thinks I look good in white? A White blouse that straps around me in a white padded room!!!???? I don't know what else I can handle, I keep picturing him walking up Calvary's hill, knowing he did that for me helps ease my whining. I just don't know, all that I do know is I have to give it to him and let him carry me through this journey. Please if you are a praying friend remember us. I thank you for it!
I am very blessed to have my 'crafting' world, I truly believe it heals me in it's own way. Everyone has their outlet and mine lately has been a blessed group of friends from my groups that send me cute images that I sit and color. I can't help but feel childlike that I'm back to coloring. It's grown up coloring though...LOL.. Here are a few images that Patti M. from AMR has sent to me.