Friday Sketcher Challenge

Removed to revamp for another project.

Slow but sure.

I have been climbing back out of my hole, "slow but sure" I was able to clean up the house some, but it's def. taken it's toll. They say not to do this but... how can you just sit there and watch the cobwebs form? The dishes pile, the carpet dander? I just can't do it. If he's gonna take my health than he better take my sight too! LOL... I know my body is tired and I actually have a planned ride for a friend to take me shopping for some well needed groceries. The humidity is thick in the air, so that's not good. Yet, you gotta have food! I have been into card making lately because it's quick gratification. I really want to get back into the "Book of Me" It's a book that I began in an online scrapbooking group; which I LOVE!!! I had began it at the beginning of the year but I haven't worked on it in awhile. Now that I have my room back in some order I can now maybe get back into it. Well, I wish anyone who is here reading this a wonderful, loving prosperous day, whether it be health, love or finance! Well, I'm off to craft....or work on my BOM.

I am so thankful today

I have had a very terrible day that is hard to explain. My daughter's birthday is tomorrow and we have always went on a pre-school shopping along with her birthday shopping. I did everything right to try to get myself stoked up and feel well. Well, I got up, got my meds and treatments all in me, mind you this is at least and hour and 1/2 process. So, We're off...so we thought. I don't know how but I got lost and went in a circle.....Twice! I started feeling rotten, my sugar was crazy and I finally get where we wanted to be and couldn't do it. We ended up rushing long enough for me to buy her a hoodie and a shirt I sat in the car and ended up going into the store and thank God she was checking out! I felt like crap and was actually fearful that we were not going to make it home. I was near tears, trying not to let my feelings show. I may HAVE to really be done driving. It's not worth passing out. I cannot believe that things have come down to this. I would have never thought I would end up like this. I just believe there is going to be some beautiful reward someday. I pray for strength, guidance and understanding in all of this. "Lord hear my prayer"
Without seeming unthankful, here is my peace in the trying day and I owe SO MUCH to a gal from AMR; Patti from PATTI'S PASSIONS; whom another girl sent her my way Jackie, I appreciate you both so much. God has a special place for you girls. HONESTLY> I am sharing my little heaven here on earth. To some who do not 'get' my passion for scrapbooking, crafts cardmaking and such. I haven't been able to do layouts and such but I have made a couple cards and now haven't done much of that. BUT these magnolia stamps and some other images these ladies have sent me have really brought me such joy to not only me but my daughter's lives. I had just picked up some cheapie 'general' watercolor pencils and I wake up all hrs of the day and night and sit color and cut these images. I love them. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MY HEAVEN ON EARTH. Bless you all for the images and I just want you to know how thankful I am...here are a few pieces of my heaven...

For those of You I keep missing...

I feel terrible that when I get online..on yahoo im, I don't respond to everyone. I get on here but then 10 people im me. My cyberworld is so full of beautiful caring people. So many talents out there. Melissa D. I feel aweful, everytime you and I hit each other; one of us is busy. I appreciate your classes, talents and what you give to all of us. I hope you got my note about the group & I hope that you realize how lucky people are to have you out there teaching your talents. Really, I mean that. Keep your chin up, I still don't get a full house. I think that's why these groups rarely take off. You need a whole staff of caring people to pull it off. Tammey is lucky to have the ladies that she does cause I don't think any ONE person can do it alone, but as for you...You would be the one to pull it off. I just wanted you to know, since we keep missing each other. Love your cyberpal, Laurie.

Wow, what an adventure, eh?

The last blog was bleek eh. I was feeling soooo hurt. Emotions can be so powerful. I don't regret feelings sometimes I hate that I have them so strongly but I don't regret them. I just still can't believe that I'm only 42 years old and I (today) feel quite certain I will not see 43. I have loved, lived & played hard! With the time of morning, it's too hard to go into all of it at this particular time. I look around my craft room as I can barely walk on these massavely swollen, tingley feet and realize even now I can barely play hard anymore; it's crazy. Well, maybe I will be able to at a later time, but somehow; I doubt it. It's just amazing at how life can just slip by once you let it. WELL, MAYBE LATER!

unable to sleep and saddened...

I can't believe I've been here in the hospital for 4 days and not one phone call (yes, they have the #) from certain people in my lives that I thought cared. If not for anything else, other than just for being a part of somebody they care abouts lives. Just to say, "hey, how are you feeling? You gonna be home soon? etc...etc...yada, yada, yada. I really just thought I was more to them than just that. "That's all I got to say about that." No more discussion, no more comment, if you are reading this and it hits you, then yes, it's probably about you. Just having that feeling of knowing you aren't cared for hurts, yet I guess it's better than being a two-faced fakes or liars. So, I guess it's just the way you have to look at it. So, as they say, 'it is what it is.'

Hospital bound again

Well, what can I say, here I am again. In case you missed me.xxxooo

More cards

I am in awe at the wonderful talents out there. I have met some very kind girls out there in my scrapbooking and cardmaking groups. Here are a few more cards I've received. The Mickey one is from my best friends mom, it's not homemade but love it just the same!

oh I forgot one!

This is my son, Ronnie and his finacee`,Roxie. Ain't they sweet! They are getting married summer 2010 after they graduate from Western!

A scripture that touched me today

From the depths of despair, O Lord, I call for your help.... I am counting on the Lord: yes, I am counting on him, I have put my hope in his word. Psalm 130:5 I have a beautiful devotional bible for women a few of my girlfriends went in on and bought me; because I was having such a difficult time w/ translation of the scriptures. It has helped me understand more of what I'm reading. I thank them for that because I have really turned to the scriptures more than ever. It's sad but I think everyone is guilty of turning more towards God when things get so much more difficult in our lives. I am working on my attitude, spirit, faith among other things. Please continue to remember me in prayer. Thanks to all that are reading this for your continues support. All of the cards and emails have been so sweet and touching; just knowing there are people out there that truly care. It's been very touching. Here are some pics of my family the one with alot of people are my family w/ my husbands family. the 4 of us are myself, hubby and children.

What's next?

Well, today I had to go pick up a container at the lab to get this....collect 3 days worth of.... Yeah....that. I have all the symptoms of pancreatitis so they are testing me for it. It is an actual common occurance with C.F. patients. I am trying to read up on it and understand it and for me, it just makes me more frightened. I am not sure I want to know all of this. I feel so anxious,I'm only getting about 4 hrs sleep a night and then wonder why I want to nap all day. I keep remembering the scripture about God not putting more on me than I can bear. I feel like I can almost understand his walk up Calvary. My knees feel like they just may buckle, I just don't know how much more I can take. I am waiting to wake up and it all be a terrible nightmare. I seriously feel like I have been in shock for the past month. I just don't know how I'm supposed to do respitory therapy 3 times a week along with diabetic classes that is not including my regular appts, which includes 3 different drs. Sorry, I'm journalling but I feel like it helps me vent... it is my therapy. Jackie thanks for your kind words again! You are the best, I appreciate your friendship. Well, I need to try and go get some of that sleep I was talking about earlier. Night